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April 21st

Around this time in April I feel a bit odd ever since I started having memory recall of my life as Manfred.  And for those of you who don’t know who Manfred was – I was a Prussian, aka German, pilot during the First World War.  I was essentially shot down on this day of April in 1918.  The  difficult parts about this death is that the history books do not record it correctly, I did not complete my mission, and I missed out on having a happy life with most most recently wed to bride.  History also does not record that either.  Although I do know that I was married in Bavaria and know the marriage number.  They won’t release a copy of the certificate.

Disturbing photo to see oneself dead even though it was long ago in the past.

Disturbing to see a photo of oneself dead even though it was long ago in the past.

So the history books show or speculate that I was shot down and died, but the truth of the matter was that the plane got hit as well as my right elbow and I was forced to land.  I was injured but I survived only to be shot in the back by three men dressed in what I believe were French uniforms.  This is curious because supposedly there was not supposed to be French troops in the area at the time where I crash landed the plane near a row of large bushes.  I was waiting for enemy troops to arrive, so I was looking in the direction I was expecting them, which was opposite of where these guys came from.  Yes, I was nervous and a bit scared since ground troops had a bad reputation for treating pilots on both sides poorly.  As aviators, who understood the dangers of aerial combat – we often tried to get to our “prey” before the ground troops did.  These assholes who came out of the bushes basically shot at an unarmed man who was waiting to surrender.  I dived down to the ground hence the strange placement of the wounds in my body – the experts never consider this option – and I proceeded to lie on the ground while my attackers came over and kicked at me.  I think they kicked me in the face as well as other places.  Curiously, the last person I saw while alive was the kindly face of a dark haired man who I believe was Scottish.

Then there is the mission, which I have no proof of what so ever.  Kaiser Wilhelm wanted to end the war and he needed someone to take a message to the other side.  My memories of the conversation with him are still somewhat repressed probably because they don’t match what we have been taught during this lifetime, but he wanted the war to end.  For some reason he felt that he could not trust someone within his own advisory group.  I don’t think he knew who it was.  It was like someone or a group of people were working against him.  He wanted the war to end as a stalemate.  He wanted the Americans to help – not to win the war –  but make it end.  I was given documents and money, which the historians have mentioned in books, but the documents from the Kaiser have not surfaced except a friend came across some special items in one of the universities in England.  She did not know what she had come across and then suddenly these documents were hidden away from access.

I think very fondly of the men in this photo.  I was proud to fly with them.  My former self - Manfred - is seated in the plane.

I think very fondly of the men in this photo. I was proud to fly with them. My former self – Manfred – is seated in the plane.

Part of the arrangements to get me safely behind enemy lines was coordinated with an old military group that had gone underground several hundred years ago and did not have any allegiances to any government or religious group.  Their role in the war was to save the lives of the innocent and try to get the war to end.  Their members were amongst the nationalities that were involved in the war.  Unknown to me several of my pilots were members of this group and they may have been considering me as a possible ally or new member.  At least I would have hoped they would have had me on the list to consider for membership.  I believe that Roy Brown and the pilot that I pretended to chase after were either members or sympathetic to their mission.  They were to act as an escort.  Unfortunately the ground troops got involved in our little show and my plane was damaged along with my right elbow.

Lastly, my marriage to Werner Voss’s younger sister Margret was not to be enjoyed this lifetime.  It is something that I regret.  I finally found someone who was right for me.  This is also a point of contention with the historians.  I even had one say to me that he did not care if what I wrote to him about was the truth – he was going to publish and write what he wanted to say regardless of what really happened.  This hits me to the very core of my being in that I think that professionals should uphold a higher standard.  They should do what is right.  Historians are supposed to be preservers of the past, of what really truthfully happened, and not what someone wants to say what happened.  We learn nothing from those kind of lies.

Yes, I am idealist.  And everyday I look in the mirror and wonder why I should remain one.

Past influence the Present

Does the past influence the present?  And if so how much does it affect the present?  More research has been done concerning past life experiences and present day maladies such as strange irrational phobias that do not seem to be centered in any present day experience.   I have seen reference to psychologists doing past life regression or hypnosis to discover possible roots for unusual fears or concerns.  And I think this effort is not wasted time.   I have an extreme dislike for walking in the mud to the point where I will walk around it or completely avoid it by not continuing on a pathway.  I had somewhat assumed that this attitude was me just being fussy about my clothes, but the origins of this dislike goes to a situation in a past life where I had to walk into the mud to retrieve proof of victories.

“Mud in Your Eye” by James Dietz from http://odeclonje.tumblr.com/ website.

As Manfred I had to prove at times that a victory was mine, which meant either capturing (or saving from the ground troops) the pilot and or getting a piece of the downed plane.  Often the poor pilot would land or crash in some god forsaken area like No Man’s Land, which was an area void of vegetation and any kind of life.  The ground was turned and churned into a thick muck littered with war materials some of which would be corpses of men and animals.  An unpleasant experience of sinking into the wet soil that would have sickening crunches that one could never know was a tree branch or a bone.  The smell was often moldy or swampy and then occasionally acrid with the stench of flesh rotting.  And to make matters worse, it seemed as if the Earth did not want to allow one to proceed or escape from its clutches as if it wanted to make you a part of the loathsome vastness of No Man’s Land.

It brings a grimace to my face just thinking about it.  And generally, once you arrived at your destination, you would find the remains of another soldier much like yourself in a mangled condition.  It was hard to force that image and reality away to be able to do what must be done.  And yes, sometimes we found living pilots and observers in their wrecked planes.  If they were really lucky, then they were not too injured and could be escorted back to the airbase.  In more difficult situations, one might find themselves having to decide if euthanasia was the best way to handle a situation.  No warrior wants to sit for hours in pain waiting to die.  I don’t think I ever had to euthanize any of my aerial victories.

But I digress from the topic at hand, which is does the past affect the present.  I think the answer is yes based upon my own experiences.  I now know why I react the way I do to mud.  And I can respect that reaction even though it may seem a bit irrational for this current lifetime.  Understanding how the past can affect the present is very useful whether it is used to treat some sort of so called malady or using experience to find inspiration for a present lifetime.

A common poor landing. For some reason many biplanes were very nose heavy – especially the Tri-Fokker!

I have often wished that I had been able to realize sooner that I had past life memories.  I think it would have been an asset during my undergraduate years.  I think it would have given me focus and drive, and I would have not wasted so much time on irrelevant things and people.  I think my direction in life and strengths would have been much clearer and would have acted as a guide for me to explore what I could do with the present.   I can look back and see the clues were there but I was ignoring them because of the current popular social norms concerning reincarnation.  At least now I am more mature and not so easily a victim of other peoples’ values and I can enjoy and benefit from being me.

Typical devastation of the landscape after a battle. No trees, mud, stagnant water, no animals, no vegetation, corpses, and left over war materials.

Hello world!

This is a temporary hello while I get my thoughts together…..  You can visit my website – http://www.rittmeister.org if you just can’t wait for something interesting to be replaced with this dull lifeless introduction.

So if I have a website, why have a blog?  Because the website is not a discussion place but an archive of memories shared without explanation.  I don’t try to urge you to believe me or the others.  We are sharing what we recall on the website, and the blog is a more in depth expression of what happens when one has past life memory recall.